*** 從自我覺醒到成為導師
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過去的修行人必須通過很多艱辛的磨練，才可以達到聖人的境界，獲致導師的地位(Gurupada)。但是在霎哈嘉則不必這樣，因為我想一旦人可以獲得自覺，他們可以看到自己有什麼問題，他們可以自我反省，然後會嘗試去糾正自己。對許多練習者而言，我的這種預期是正確的，但是有一些練習者仍是原地踏步、不思昇進，心中只是想著自己已是霎哈嘉瑜伽士、已獲得很高的成就、已是很特殊的人等等。這些錯覺製造了不少問題，讓他們心胸狹隘、自私、自我中心等等，甚至人們會想這些人怎麼可能是要霎哈嘉練習者呢？
所以你們首先要明瞭，你們為何可以獲得自覺？這純粹是因為這個時代的生命能量散發出無比的慈悲與愛心，在過去它從未如此。但是因為你們很輕易、很廉價地獲得自覺，許多人並不了解(它的珍貴)，所以他們不靜坐、不會反省、也不真誠奉獻。當然有一些人已達到相當的境地，但大多數人只是活在自以為有所成就的錯覺裡。
我們首先要反省的是：我們是否只關心自己呢？是否所有的時間想的都是："我有這些困難、那些困難，我有種種的苦楚等等"，假如你的注意力都在此，時時刻刻擔心的都是自己，那麼你就無法打破你自己的藩籬，你只是被你的自私及自我中心所控制。若只想到你自己，那是會妨礙你的成長。
舉例來說，假如你擔心的是你身體的舒適，或你身體的毛病，那麼你仍是處在身體的層次而已，你必須從身體的層次往上昇進，那麼你應該如何做呢？以習慣於身體的舒適為例，比如你習慣要有舒適的床，房間內要有衛浴，那麼你應該去做處罰你的身體的事情，到身體覺得不舒適的處境，去了解你並不為身體的舒適性所掌控。當你不受制於你的身體，這會是一個很大的成就。當然假如你遇到舒適的環境，那是很好的事，但若你沒有，那也是很好的事。對一個霎哈嘉瑜伽士而言，非常重要的一點是，他必須能活得像一個聖人，(能隨遇而安)。我並非說你必須像一個苦行者，但是在內裡，你必須像一個苦行者一般可以掌控你的身體。
有多位偉大的修行者都問過我："那些人為什麽被祝福，而可以獲得自覺呢？他們有做過什麽嗎？"，我回答道："只因為他們的意願(desire)而已！"。但是在自覺之後，若你只有意願是不夠的，你必須倚靠你自己，必須依靠你的靈的光，必須去明瞭你有那些點須要改進，這對你的昇進是非常重要的。你隨時要問自己："為什麽我想要這個東西？(譯者：如前述的''為何我要有舒適的床？'')想要這樣做？為什麽我需要這個？我這樣做的目的是什麽？"。靈體本身是可以自我滿足的，假如你已被賦予靈性，(假如你的靈性已被喚醒)，那麽你應該可以自我滿足的，你內在的自我滿足將可以帶你到喜樂的海洋(Ocean of Joy)，即一種喜樂的狀態，在此狀態下本身就是喜樂，你就享受這喜樂，無需其他的東西來讓你高興，這就是所謂的''純粹的喜樂''(nirananda)。
註一：江瑞凱摘譯自Shri
Mataji 在導師普祭(Guru Puja)的談話1996-07-28。JSM ! 敬請霎哈嘉兄弟姊妹們指正。
So to
get this Gurupada, to the
position of a guru, after that they had to work very, very hard to achieve a
state of a saint. But in Sahaja Yoga that is not the case, as you
know. I just thought – if people get their realisation, they’ll see for
themselves what’s wrong with them, they will introspect themselves and will try
to correct themselves. It is true, for many, many people, but some of them
still are lingering behind and are going on and on and on thinking that they
are Sahaja Yogis, they have achieved a lot, they are something very special. So
this delusion is all the time is creating this problem. This delusion makes
them very narrow minded, selfish, self-centred, and people can’t believe how
can they be Sahaja Yogis.
So the
first and foremost thing we have to know that this Sahaja Yoga has worked out
because Paramchaitanya is
transmitting compassion, It never did before, It never had that kind of an
attitude which it is there because I am a Mother. And this compassion has
worked it this way that: you all have got your realisation, you have achieved a
state which we can call as a Self-realised souls. But still, because you
got it so easily, cheaply, I think still we don’t realise what we have
got. Still we do not practice meditation, introspection and
dedication. Some are very much there, but mostly we are just living in
the idea that we have already achieved.
So, the first thing we should introspect: Are we concerned about
ourselves? All the time do we think that we are suffering, we have this
problem, that problem, or this should be done, that should be done. If
the attention is on that, that all the time you are worried about yourself,
then you cannot break, you cannot break through this shell of your being, which
is under the domination of your mental selfishness or self-centredness.
Even self-centredness is absolutely against your growth. ........
But if you are worried about your body comforts or your body
troubles then still you are at a body level, which you have to transcend.
Worried about how you look, how you dress up, what sort of things you have to
wear: all this makes you yet not a good Sahaja Yogi. This is one style of
Sahaja Yogis who still want very great comforts.
So, what
you have to do, if you are used to comforts: try to go and sleep on the
street. I will not do that, but you can do it. Or sleep on a tree, you
may fall down doesn’t matter (laughter). Do all kinds of things that are
necessary to punish your body to understand that you are not bound with this
comfort of the body. This is one of the greatest things one has to see,
that you are not bound by your body. It’s alright if you have comfort,
well and good, if you don’t have, well and good. For a Sahaja Yogi it is very
important that he should be able to live like a saint. Not necessarily that you
should become a sanyasi, but
from inside your body should be such that you can dominate your body. How can
you not sleep anywhere? Why can you not sleep anywhere? .........
Many
people tell Me “Mother, people had to do so
much: to go to Himalayas, do this, do that, and then they got their realisation. How is it these people
you have blessed?” Even some great saints asked Me
that. “What right they had to get
their realisation? Why did you give them realisation? What have
they achieved?” I said “Only
their desire. Their desire was very much there that they should get their
Self-realisation and that’s how they got it“.
But now
to go into only desire, is not sufficient. You have to depend on
yourself, on the light of your Spirit you should see what’s wrong with
you. This is a very important thing. Ask questions to yourself. “Why do I want this? Why do I
need this? What is the purpose?” .........
So
spirituality itself should be self-satisfying. If you are spiritually
endowed, then you are self-satisfied. And this self-satisfaction within
you will lead you to that Ocean of Joy about which I have been telling you and
all the scriptures have described. For Sahaja Yogis, the word we use is nirananda. Nirananda means: A
joyous state, where nothing is needed. Joy itself is joy. You are
enjoying only joy. Nothing is needed to make you happy. You are happy because
of joy that you have, in the nirananda
state.
